3 posts tagged “boys”
i'm here feeling like i got the short end of the stick- well, the short end of both sides of the stick (if that even makes sense).
short end #1.
i'm to walk away from what i hoped,
PLUS
short end #2.
my relationships with many mutual friends are compromised.
i'm way better with #1, but #2 is bumming me out beyond description. i know it won't last forever, but in the right now, it blows.
all my pants have rips in them, and i don't have any $ for a new pair.
god, please send down pants like manna.
i'm very anxious to get back onto my bike, to go round and round, maybe then i'll feel happy again.
i want to go home, the only home i know seems to be jesus' arms.
I guess sometimes you just need a mirror held up to you.
How is it that I could be so 'fuzzy' about a decision when such significant things were occurring that were obviously pointing me one way? Too often I let my doubts, fears and selfish wants get in the way of, well, life. I can so easily write off things that are quite possibly things God is calling me into. shh... wanna know a secret? you're one of the first to know,.... i'm going to zambia in july
It's really scary trying to follow Jesus, but I highly recommend it.
I'm back to listening to Regina Spektor. I know what that means, and I don't like it.
I'm too tired to make this post more reflective or elaborate, so goodnight.
Can't wait to start my day tomorrow with a beautiful americano & a gorgeous 5K bike ride! Seriously, I got on my bike today and started giggling. I'm infatuated.
"I do not exist," we faithfully insist
while watching sink the heavy ship of everything we knew
if ever you come near I'll hold up high a mirror
Lord, I could never show you anything as beautiful as you
-messes of men, mewithoutYou
Doesn't anyone believe in purity anymore, in a non-lame youth group-y way?
My standards for a boy are absurdly high.
But it's not like anyone has come around and I've thought to myself "Hmm, no, he's not up to my standards". Cause there's no boys.
Ah well, if I stay single, I don't have to compromise and amalgamate my [international] dreams. Marriage complicates that stuff up.
I won't lie, I think about boys all the time. But no particular one. Just the concept, I guess...
