8 posts tagged “music”

the first time I heard the song Is There a Ghost by Band of Horses, a girl who worked at my placement (which now my workplace) showed me because of the neat video. I really liked it too, and vaguely remembered the tune and lyrics.

When Alanna and I travelled to Chicago in February, the hostel's lobby was always playing music, and after a day or so, it became clear there were a few playlists to choose from. One of these playlists had Is There a Ghost on it, and after a couple days, it really felt like every time we were coming back to the hostel or going for breakfast the song was playing. It almost became a homecoming song and it was comforting even, to know I was coming back to something constant. It also made every step feel like an epic adventure.

A couple weeks ago I was in Old Navy. After about five minutes I finished my unsatisfactory browse and Is There a Ghost came on and I just stopped what I was doing, and pretended to browse for a few more minutes just so I could listen to the rest of the song. I cried a little, and smiled a lot. I hadn't listened to the song since, and now I'm happy I didn't.

Tonight the story just came to my head, and  I proceeded to search out the video on youtube, to complete the circle.

& so here it is.

okay so, some awesome shows coming up..
11 feb: vampire weekend; horseshoe
2 mar: evangelicals; el mocambo
4 mar: josh ritter; phoenix
6 mar: jason collett; lee's
17 mar: justice; sound academy *
20 mar: caribou; lee's
16 apr: hot chip; phoenix

* though i really would like to see justice live, i'm not sure i want to see them at the docks/i wonder if the crowd would totally suck. eeeew.

out of all of these, hot chip is a must!

someone come with meee!

I'm hoping tomorrow I can proclaim in my blog,
"and then she found the dress"

I'm quitting life tomorrow (well, just not going to placement) to search Kensington market up and down for a sweet cream-coloured dress. I have vetoed the mall's pitiful selection, but am also having trouble discerning between cream, beige, gold and off-white.

Oh, I'm looking for a bridesmaid's dress, by the way.

I am hoping I can find an excuse to buy a pair of sparkly gold shoes with purchase of needed dress (that may or may not be out there).

Anyway, a lot is going through my brain lately. Not like that's new. I've been dreaming a lot about Chicago lately, and getting really scared about how I've committed to go to Zambia. I saw Persepolis this weekend, and I'm still thinking about it. My back has been hurting a lot lately. I'm worried my heart is on the way to disrepair but I'm disguising it as being okay. I wonder if I'll ever know how to really love someone in an intense, "relationship-al" way if I'm never given the chance. I wonder about patience and if I know anything about it. I've decided I'm giving up alcohol, caffeine & facebook for lent. I'm tired of idealizing people, and people idealizing me. I'm so thankful for the intense executive meeting we had tonight, and how deeply I get to know these random people I've stepped into leadership with. I don't want to feel disconnected anymore. From myself, from my community, from my friends. I crave a deep&close relationship with God, but lack the effort too frequently. What I really want to give up forever, is fear. Don't want to build my house on it anymore.

But you know what? God has been doing good things. Dad's surgery went really well, and placement offered me a part-time job when I am done my hours. God's good beyond the good things that happen though. He's bigger than feelings of being afraid, and feelings of being secure as well. I guess there's a certain peace to be found in hindsight.

I leave as soon as it gets light outside,
like a prisoner breaking out of jail
and I steel down to business fifteen-five-oh-one
like I had a bounty hunter on my tail

and somebody stops to pick me up
but he drops me off just down the block
and along the highway where the empty spirits breathe;
wild sage growing in the weeds

walked down the soft shoulder and I count my steps
headed vaguely eastward, sun in my eyes
and I lose my footing and I skin my hands breaking my fall
and I laugh to myself, and look up at the skies
and then I think I hear angels in my ears
like marbles being thrown against a mirror
and along the highway where unlucky stray dogs bleed
wild sage growing in the weeds

and some days I don't miss my family
and some days I do
some days I think I'd feel better if I tried harder
most days I know it's not true

I lay down right where I felt cold grass in my face
and I hear the traffic like the rhythm of the tides
and I stare at the scrape on the heel of my hand
'til it doesn't sting so much and until the bloods dried
and when somebody asks if I'm ok
I don't know what to say
and along the highway
from cast-off innumerable seeds

wild sage growing in the weeds.

-john darnielle.

fantastic venue, beer in hand, surrounded by people, singing "my heart out" to Don't be so mean Jellybean.
good night. concert attended alone #4537041.

and oh, my, God, I love the weather. beautiful cold.

i adore riding my bike amidst deep thoughts on warm nights. (note: i began to write riding as 'wriding'... ) so, i went to see built to spill. i got a sweet leany spot on the railing, which made my experience far better. seriously. i really like lee's palace. i might even go as far to say that it is my favourite venue in toronto. 
i think it was necessary for me to go, it felt right and good for me to sing the bridge of 'carry the zero'  very loudly. oh it was really beautiful the concert it was, the encore was too jammy for my tastes though.  it was so necessary not just because i've loved built to spill for over five years, but mainly because i haven't been to see much live music this past year. and it seriously makes me feel less okay. i need it in my life, it's really essential. 
i went alone, like i go to most of my favourite concerts [one reason for less live-music-going]. if there was one thing i would change about toronto... it would be that i had more friends to go to concerts/shows with.  hm... sigh.

setlist for my future reference

1. Liar
2. Made-Up Dreams
3. The Source
4. Time Trap
5. Velvet Waltz
6. Third Uncle (Brian Eno cover)
7. Big Dipper
8. Nowhere Nothing Fuckup
9. Car
10. Conventional Wisdom
11. You Were Right
12. Stop the Show
13. Carry the Zero

Encore
14. Randy Described Eternity (27-minute version)

 

i've been dreaming of chicago lately. i feel it in my bones, i need to go.

who reads this, anyway? doesn't matter, because [see title].

I'm going to see Built to Spill tonight; yesterday I bought the last ticket. I feel pretty cool. .....and so very excited.

Sam the Record Man at Yonge and Dundas is closing tommorow. Sad sad.
I think I've always kind of taken advantage of it being around. I hope Ryerson gets it and maintains the exterior. That would be pretty rad.
I couldn't look at certain salespeople though... you know the guys in their late-30's/40's with beards and bellies that love their job like it's all they have. wonder where they'll end up.
meanwhile, their blowout sale is pretty sweet as everything is 50% off! soooo this is what I got.

Morrissey- Your Arsenal - $1.50
Shout out Louds- Combines EP- $5.99
John Vanderslice- Pixel Revolt- $11.99
Mews Too: Asthmatic Kitty Compilation- $4.99
Copeland- Beneath the Medicine Tree- $

9.99
Shapes and Sizes- Split Lips, Winning Hips, A Shiner- $8.99
My Brightest Diamond- Bring Me the Workhorse- $9.99
Brother Danielson- Brother is to Son- $12.49
El Perro Del Mar- s/t- $12.99
Elliott Smith- Either/Or- $9.49

So much Asthmatic Kitty stuff. Obviously because it is hidden from the public how much of a freaking amazing label it is. And surely Danielson/Shapes&Sizes takes getting used to. 

Bye Sam- wish I knew you better!